As anyone who has read my blog knows, I was raised by a christian mother and considered myself a christian until about 5 years ago. I’m now an atheist (I can even spell it correctly) and I’ve done my best to rid myself of all the baggage that comes along with being a christian.
One thing I’ve had trouble getting rid of, however, is my superstitious nature and my belief in the supernatural. One of my biggest problems in this area is ghosts. I still believe in them. I know it’s irrational and illogical to believe in them and that all those ghost stories can most likely be explained in a scientific way, but I still believe.
And It’s not just that I believe in them – they scare me to death. I get so superstitious about them that I think I can attract them to me by just thinking too much about them – and I think way too much about ghosts for someone who’s never had any kind of ‘supernatural’ occurrence happen to them personally.
I used to actually be able to enjoy ghost story fiction. But now, they scare me so badly that no matter how bad the movie is, I’ll be jumpy for days after seeing a haunted house movie.
On the other hand, if the supernatural force is NOT a ghost, they can creep me out but they don’t keep me scared for long periods of time. For example, you know those horrid Paranormal Activity movies? They would probably scare me if they were about ghosts. The second it was revealed it was about a demon, I wasn’t scared in the least. (Side note: My husband and I actually like those movies, but only because they’re so ridiculous that we can laugh at them and make fun of them. It’s rather cathartic, actually.)
When I saw the American The Grudge remake it scared me so badly that for days I could barely move when it was dark if I thought about it too much. And have you ever tried to NOT think of something? Yeah, it doesn’t work.
One of my favorite horror movies is The Blair Witch Project. I can’t watch it anymore. Too many ghosts. I haven’t even tried to watch one of the best horror movies ever – The Haunting – in a very long time. (The original, not that laughable remake.)
So, how do I get over this? I was able to logically come to the conclusion that there is most likely not a god so why can’t I do the same for ghosts? Is it because people I trust have told me true ghost stories? Yes, I’m sure that all of those occurrences can probably be explained but the stories still scare me when I hear them or think about them.
Anyone out there have any good advice for overcoming an irrational superstition? I want to be able to watch “The Changeling” again someday.